So I went in for a hearing test last week and they ruled out all my inner ear theories. They scheduled a balance test for the first week in February and scooted me on my way.. So I got to thinking, why don't I go see my buddy, Dr Ogata? I have known him for about 15 years and he knows me and will take the time to check my ears and my neck and at least I will see a friendly face. He is the very best Chiropractor in the valley, but he wouldn't touch my neck. He told me that it sounds neurological and set up an MRI for the very next day. I went in to the MRI and came out so dizzy that I couldn't even sit up on my own. I did not like the loud sounds and the shaking, but if they were looking for a reaction, I'm sure they got it. My plan is to lay low for a while. Keep the distance from me to the hospital short and rest as much as I can stand. School starts this week and I was really looking forward to getting into the swing of having a schedule. I am still going to go, but I will have to find out the bus routes and take the safe routes to campus. It is very therapeutic to write about it instead of talking. Talking makes me cry.
Here is what I know. Dr Ogata was concerned about an extra vein I have in my brain. They rupture after a while. I guess the signs of it beginning to rupture are swelling and pressure. So if he is correct, Brain surgery is in my future. I am not sure that is what it is, but for now, that is the speculation that makes the most sense. I can't believe that I could have brain surgery, it is a bit surreal. I hope they just find out that I have a swirley twirley gumdrop head and that a simple change of diet is the answer. I could live on apples and rice.
I love you all. I really do. You, my friends make life amazing. All the fun times and happy memories are flooding in big time this week. It's weird to think of how your life is totally not your own. It's like its on loan and when it's over, it's over. I hope to be around a long time still, but perspective is certainly changing. I always thought I would get older and teach dance for generations to come.. lol.. I guess motivational speaker might be better if this route takes me to where it just might.. I better put the positive thinking cap on and charge ahead.
I really do love you.. and I am looking up to the blue skies..
