Sunday, January 19, 2014

Not really Vertigo, I guess

So I went in for a hearing test last week and they ruled out all my inner ear theories. They scheduled a balance test for the first week in February and scooted me on my way.. So I got to thinking, why don't I go see my buddy, Dr Ogata? I have known him for about 15 years and he knows me and will take the time to check my ears and my neck and at least I will see a friendly face. He is the very best Chiropractor in the valley, but he wouldn't touch my neck. He told me that it sounds neurological and set up an MRI for the very next day. I went in to the MRI and came out so dizzy that I couldn't even sit up on my own. I did not like the loud sounds and the shaking, but if they were looking for a reaction, I'm sure they got it. My plan is to lay low for a while. Keep the distance from me to the hospital short and rest as much as I can stand. School starts this week and I was really looking forward to getting into the swing of having a schedule. I am still going to go, but I will have to find out the bus routes and take the safe routes to campus. It is very therapeutic to write about it instead of talking. Talking makes me cry.

Here is what I know. Dr Ogata was concerned about an extra vein I have in my brain. They rupture after a while. I guess the signs of it beginning to rupture are swelling and pressure. So if he is correct, Brain surgery is in my future. I am not sure that is what it is, but for now, that is the speculation that makes the most sense.  I can't believe that I could have brain surgery, it is a bit surreal. I hope they just find out that I have a swirley twirley gumdrop head and that a simple change of diet is the answer. I could live on apples and rice.

I love you all. I really do. You, my friends make life amazing. All the fun times and happy memories are flooding in big time this week. It's weird to think of how your life is totally not your own. It's like its on loan and when it's over, it's over. I hope to be around a long time still, but perspective is certainly changing. I always thought I would get older and teach dance for generations to come.. lol.. I guess motivational speaker might be better if this route takes me to where it just might.. I better put the positive thinking cap on and charge ahead.

I really do love you.. and I am looking up to the blue skies..

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Vertigo.

SO when a group exercise instructor gets dizzy... no work for you. I have had dizzy spells since Thanksgiving and finally I went to the Doctor because they weren't going away. Now I can't even drive. I feel like a sixteen year old who got the car keys taken away. I hate the dizziness so much though and its getting scary to drive... and sometimes to walk. I almost fell over the other day in the kitchen, thankful that it's not huge.  I feel like my whole career is going to change now cause I can't spin around, even slowly. It's super frustrating!!!!!!  ugh!

 Praying for small miracles, like a healed head.

Saturday, December 21, 2013

Christmas is coming!!!

There are so many fun traditions at Christmas time. Clam dip, egg nog, and peppermint... yes foods are traditional. And I love driving in the snow! Hanging lights and decorating the tree are such great memory joggers. I always feel a nostalgia when Christmas time comes. A longing to be small again and feel the magic wonder of Christmas. I sometimes can breathe deep and catch a snowflake as I walk through the parking lot of a grocery store to pick up my favorite Christmas snack (there are so many fun snacks for Christmas) or I can watch the tree with all the lights on it in complete darkness, snuggled in a blanket with.. yes hot chocolate another favorite snack! We always watch "ELF" at Christmas time and we play carols on the piano while everyone sings. This is truly a beautiful and connecting time of year.

      This year we are making presents, long boards to be exact. Everyone is getting one, even me! I am so excited and even though we can't ride them until the snow clears, I am going to practice in the garage until it's warmer.  Sean is cutting out the wood and I am painting some of them (in a house full of artists, their work is better than mine) and sanding them all. I am thinking this will be an amazing Christmas! It's always better to do something for people than just shopping for them, in my opinion. Also at 300 bucks a pop from Zumies...times nine, equals no thank you!


      If you need an idea for recycling white shirts, here ya go! I love this idea, but I have no babies or white shirts... lol...

I hope your skies are blue as blue can be!!  Much love to you all..

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

always sick of eating Gluten free at Restraunts....

I love eating out... Lunch with mom is awesome. I love spending time out with my sweetheart, and friends and whomever wants to dine outside the home is a friend of mine... however... I hate people telling me what I can and cannot eat because I have Celiac disease. Today a waitress told me that I couldn't eat olives and I was blown away.. why? I asked... Because the stuff they are soaked in does something to the gluten , she replied. As to not raise a fuss, I said, can I please get the olives on the side? and then I ate them. They may have been soaked in some kind of alcohol, but there was no reason that I could think of why I shouldn't eat them. It might have been barley that could have, but didn't send me into stomach spasms. I really am a stubborn woman. I know this about myself. The fact that this very nice, but unaware, waitress did not know was that it either has gluten in it, or it doesn't. Olives do not have gluten. If they are stuffed with bread or soaked in barley, malt, or some other gluten source, I understand... I will not eat them. IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHY YOU ARE TELLING ME TO NOT EAT SOMETHING.. GO FIND OUT!!!! This makes me upset. If you are in business to sell food. Educate yourself and your staff on food allergies, or get out of the kitchen! This public service message brought to you today by me.. Yeah.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

SO many reasons I love my husband.... here are my top 20!

  • My sweetheart is one of most thoughtful people that I know.
  •  He is kind to those he loves almost to a fault.
  •  He is a great chef, he can make any ingredients into a wonderful dish that makes you lick your plate clean.
  •  He serves people, everyone he can.
  •  He works really hard and loves his job.
  •  He is funny, so funny! I laugh with him daily.
  •  He is honest and always expects honesty from others.
  • He doesn't ever yell...ever.
  •  He will always try to see your side of things, especially if he doesn't agree with you.
  •  He is handsome and used to have a fan club in high school (he is still embarrassed about it).
  • He is very strong without even trying.
  • He is modest about his many achievements, and there are too many to count.
  •  He is 100 percent devoted to me and our children.
  •  He is kind to his ex-wife and her husband.
  • He loves animals-so we have 2 dogs and a kitten and over 50 fish.
  •  He snuggles like a champ, especially that snugly kitten.
  • He is warm, both in body temperature and spirit. Everyone who meets him, likes him.
  •  He is spontaneous and loves to just get up and take a drive to nowhere.
  • He has an amazing voice- even though he thinks he can't sing.
  • He will always open my door for me, and others.

So, here are the top 20 reasons that I love my sweetheart. I don't tell him enough that he means everything to me, but he does!

Monday, November 18, 2013

Life, one day at a time...

So my clothes were wet today as I drove to class because the dryer hadn't finished, and I do not like to be late for class, especially when I am the one teaching. By about song two, they dryed and the sweat began, so then they were wet again. It seems I can't stay dry today... Because from that class I went to teach Zumba/strength at a different club... sweaty again! Now I am blogging in soppy clothes. Oh well, I can remedy that when I finish this entry.
     School is wrapping up for the Thanksgiving holiday and I am excited for the break. I took a week off teaching, so I may jump into some strength classes of someone elses for the holidays. It would be nice to be in the back row!! ;) I also want to start cycling with my husband now that I am stronger. I always have liked cycling, but my endurance wasn't what it is now and I never made my goals which was always upsetting. He doesn't like classes, so we will probably do the cycling on our own.
     This has been such a busy month already and my blogging has suffered, but I will tell you why... I have moved to a new club, everything is in place and the new classes start December 2nd. I am thrilled to be making the change. I will still teach three classes a week in the morning at ten am, but it will be at Body & Soul fitness on Ustick and Cole. I am hoping that I can teach more as time demands. I still teach monday mornings at Axiom and T/Th evenings at the YMCA. I was loving training for Bodyattack, but my leg started acting up and I had to tone it down. Boot camp is entering its last week and I am a little afraid to not keep up my momentum as I enter the holiday food season. I love to eat , but I love working out too... Finals are December 13th and then next semester will start in January. I have a big chunk of time where I can get my house back to clean and orderly!! yay!

I'm just blabbering, but Im getting cold, so off I go!!

Happy Monday!